TMJ

For those of you who don't know, I have a temporomandibular joint disorder. Something is up with my left jaw joint, and it hurts like hell. It hurts to open or clench my mouth. I have problems chewing food. I can't play my clarinet. I'm going through quite an ordeal because of it.
My clarinet is the only "cause" I can think of. And I hate to think that's what it is. I've worked so hard to be proud of my clarinet playing and to work my way up in the section, and I can't even audition now. I probably would've gotten 1st clarinet music for concert band this year, too. So I probably won't get to be in the wind ensemble because of it, and I might be playing a practically foreign instrument that doesn't hurt my jaw. It's going to be so frustrating because I won't sound too great on an instrument I haven't touched since 6th grade and knowing how much better I sounded on clarinet. I'm also worried about losing the $2,000 scholarship I get from band, but there's no reason to be. Robb won't kick me out. He's too nice of a guy.
A much bigger blow to me about this was something I didn't even think of until my boyfriend brought it up. I probably won't even be able to kiss him without being in pain. I guess it wasn't enough torture to only get to see him a few weeks a year.
Life sure can suck.






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