So yeah, life took a turn for the worse today.
Jobs for the summer: I wasn’t able to get an interview with the fireworks store in Kentland because the place wouldn’t answer the phone when I tried to call them back. I called them on Thursday, the lady called me back on Friday, but my phone didn’t ring. I called back almost immediately, but no answer. I called again on Monday, no answer. I emailed the lady on Monday, no reply. Cute. The sheriff hasn’t called me or emailed me on details on an interview in which it sounded like I was hired. Looks like I’ll face second degree burns in the cornfields again if I can’t find anywhere to work. It just really pisses me off because these things aren't my fault. I'm really trying to get a decent summer job and nothing is cooperating.
Housing: I don’t know where I’m going to live next semester. Erka and I tried for a 2-person suite, but no. We’re second on the waiting list. So, we tried for private rooms. Nope, instead, we’re assigned semi-private rooms and we’re 10th and 18th on the picking order. Something sounds very wrong to me. It looks like we’ll have to room together again (probably for a month, like this year), but neither of us wants a roommate. We both want privacy, to live on our own schedules without worrying about each other, to have alone time with boyfriends, to sleep…. I just want to be able to keep sane. That’s hard to do with a roommate (no offense to Erka or whoever I end up rooming with). I don't think I can get a single anyways, it's just too much money. Dad will be all over that, and that's just added stress.
Classes: Papers. Tons and tons of pointless papers because the professors slacked off during the semester and now they have to catch up. And tests. Lots of those for the hell of it. We’re reading plays in Core, and I have the most difficult time reading them. Plays are practically impossible for me to read. So, looks like I’m screwed in there the rest of the semester. I’m doing worse on my Sociology tests because I study…make sense of that. Please.
I was in control of my life. Everything was going great. Then all this crap just swamped me. I'm struggling with classes (I'm not taking 19 credit hours ever again). I don't know where I'm going to live. People that I'm closest to are acting different and I don't know how to react. I don't know how I'm going to get money this summer without the sun destroying my shoulders again and without suffering from heat exhaustion. And to top it all off, I went over my network bandwith a few minutes ago for no reason (I know that's trivial, but it just kinda put me over the edge). I just...I just want life to work again.
It's all right where it belongs.
This is the best of all possible worlds.
3 comments:
Hey, try not to worry too much. Things will be okay again. It's just that the end of the semester is here and with it, comes stress. It's inevitable. Anyway, I would love to live with you again (if only for a month or so). I would even be okay with waiting a semester and helping you move in with Mallory. Still, if you had to you could always try and get another little loan that would go towards a private room. The only reason I'm going for one again is that my sister is in school now so I'm actually going to have more money next year (and grant money too!). I'm sorry things aren't going so well. I know how it is to be stressed out but just remember, you always have friends who care a lot about you if you need to talk!
Erka
By the way, nice Candide quote at the end. :)
Hang in there babe, I imagine you've heard it all already. So. If you want to call, I'm available anytime after 8pm tonite (my time). :) ray
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