Cet air-là -April March

Quand ils sont longs les jours de pluie
Quand je suis seule quand je m'ennuie
Que dans un rythme monotone
Au fond de moi ton nom résonne

Il me reste cet air-là
Qui vient me parler de toi
Car en chantant cet air-là
Je ne peux penser qu'à toi

Lorsque tour à tour dans ma vie
Que je n't'ai pas vu de la semaine
Que je dis comme une litanie
À mon oreiller que je t'aime

Il me reste cet air-là
Qui vient me parler de toi
Car en chantant cet air-là
Je ne peux penser qu'à toi

Sur le triste quai d'une gare
Si un jour la vie nous sépare
Ou que ton cœur change de route
Moi j'aurai le mien en déroute

Il restera cet air-là
À jamais au fond de moi
Car pour toujours cet air-là
Parlera de toi et moi

Il restera cet air-là
À jamais au fond de moi
Et je sais que cet air-là
Te ramènera vers moi

Sarah's Having a Little Breakdown

So yeah, life took a turn for the worse today.

Jobs for the summer: I wasn’t able to get an interview with the fireworks store in Kentland because the place wouldn’t answer the phone when I tried to call them back. I called them on Thursday, the lady called me back on Friday, but my phone didn’t ring. I called back almost immediately, but no answer. I called again on Monday, no answer. I emailed the lady on Monday, no reply. Cute. The sheriff hasn’t called me or emailed me on details on an interview in which it sounded like I was hired. Looks like I’ll face second degree burns in the cornfields again if I can’t find anywhere to work. It just really pisses me off because these things aren't my fault. I'm really trying to get a decent summer job and nothing is cooperating.

Housing: I don’t know where I’m going to live next semester. Erka and I tried for a 2-person suite, but no. We’re second on the waiting list. So, we tried for private rooms. Nope, instead, we’re assigned semi-private rooms and we’re 10^th and 18^th on the picking order. Something sounds very wrong to me. It looks like we’ll have to room together again (probably for a month, like this year), but neither of us wants a roommate. We both want privacy, to live on our own schedules without worrying about each other, to have alone time with boyfriends, to sleep…. I just want to be able to keep sane. That’s hard to do with a roommate (no offense to Erka or whoever I end up rooming with). I don't think I can get a single anyways, it's just too much money. Dad will be all over that, and that's just added stress.

Classes: Papers. Tons and tons of pointless papers because the professors slacked off during the semester and now they have to catch up. And tests. Lots of those for the hell of it. We’re reading plays in Core, and I have the most difficult time reading them. Plays are practically impossible for me to read. So, looks like I’m screwed in there the rest of the semester. I’m doing worse on my Sociology tests because I study…make sense of that. Please.

I was in control of my life. Everything was going great. Then all this crap just swamped me. I'm struggling with classes (I'm not taking 19 credit hours ever again). I don't know where I'm going to live. People that I'm closest to are acting different and I don't know how to react. I don't know how I'm going to get money this summer without the sun destroying my shoulders again and without suffering from heat exhaustion. And to top it all off, I went over my network bandwith a few minutes ago for no reason (I know that's trivial, but it just kinda put me over the edge). I just...I just want life to work again.

It's all right where it belongs.







This is the best of all possible worlds.